One Day at a Time

art (36)Well, I woke up with horrible neuropathy. I was itching inside all over and my leg hurt. My hands and feet felt numb but hurting at the same time. The phrase ran through my mind “Be grateful and focus on others” but I cant’t do that right now. All I can do is feel pain. All I can do is think “why me?”. But then I decided to take action. I forced myself to get up, I made coffee. I took and extra Neurontin and 3 Alleve instead of the mobic. I sat at my table and organized it. I started to feel better. The pain was still there but tolerable. I made some oatmeal. I had coffee and oatmeal with honey. I studied the spoon that I ate my oatmeal with. It is old and tarnished and I noticed the pretty pattern. I felt better.
The point is that we all have one day to live our lives. If we are lucky we get another. I feel like giving up most days. But I will not quit. I will make the best of this day. If I can’t do what I want I will be satisfied with what I do accomplish. Thank you to God for giving me life. We are all in the same boat. Nothing is guranteed. I again say to myself, “just live this day as it comes,” and embrace my serenity. This is the cornerstone of AA. It’s hard to get this concept, some folks never do. But today I understand.
I thank Tami and Nugene for helping me last night during one of my bad spells.
I am looking forward to The Yellow Rose Conference this weekend!  I am so self-centered but am working on it.  Sometimes I feel like kicking my ego to the curb. This conference is good for that!

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One thought on “One Day at a Time

  1. It is 2 in the morning here and I am up drinking coffee…having a sleepless nite….I have those quite often…..I thought I would check to see if you had added to your blog….I really admire your honesty, it is so rare to find …..and I admire that you keep on trying to be better….I wish I could give you a hug and tuck you in and you would have a good sleep with wonderful dreams…….

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